Diary of a journaling girl #3

Diary of a journaling girl #3

Two months since the last time I wrote a personal update; it’s a shame!

Who knew being bedbound and trying to recover from that takes up all your time?! Even though I am feeling horribly at the moment, I decided my blog needed some attention. The thing about recovering from being bedbound is that you suddenly want to do EVERYTHING because you couldn’t do it for a while. But after being quite busy for a few weeks I kind of collapsed on Tuesday, and am back in bed now. Whoops! I kind of knew it would happen, but I was stubborn. So I had to learn it the hard way. I had to cancel all my plans for this and next week and have a bit of a reality check.

So let’s get back to the diary part.
In August my cat Sparrow died of poisoning. Which was quite traumatic, to be honest. To see a 5-year-old healthy cat drop dead within minutes, was horrifying! I was so shocked someone would actually kill a loved cat for no reason at all, Sparrow was an absolute sweetheart! I miss him so much and he can never be replaced. He was the first pet me and Jasper got together and it was so sad seeing how destroyed our other cat Jack was. He wouldn’t eat, was searching for his brother for days and wanted to cuddle full time. The poor guy! He is alright now but as Jack has never been an only cat, we decided to search for a friend for him last weekend.

RIP dear Sparrow, you will be our little pirate forever

We really wanted to adopt an adult cat from a shelter so last weekend we jumped in the car and drove to a few shelters nearby. The first shelter (‘t Heerveld, for my fellow Northern Dutchies) was amazing. The rooms for cats were spacious, there was lots of information about the cats and the people were really nice. As we have two adopted Spanish Greyhounds and our other cat Jack we couldn’t just adopt any cat. We loved a couple of cats there but weren’t sure they fit into our household. So we decided to give it some more thought and visit another shelter (De Swinge). It only had a few cats so we didn’t think we would find a cat there, but you only need one cat to fit into your household and we found the perfect cat. We were looking for a calm cat, who wasn’t too dominant but also not scared. It needed to be able to stand up to the dogs (or at least not run away) without bullying them (Jack bullies the dogs, we call him Terror Jack). And last but not least, it couldn’t be too scared/nervous as there are dozens of cats in our neighbourhood. We adopted a gingery-white cat and named her Lizzy, after Elizabeth Swan from Pirates of the Caribbean, as all of our cats are named after characters from that movie.

It’s always a little scary adding a new cat to your household, will the cats get along and will she be happy? But she is doing great! She and Jack were done hissing after about 2 days and now they co-exist without issues. According to Jasper they were playing together for the first time yesterday evening. She is perfect with the dogs and she is getting more used to our house. She is extremely curious and follows us around all over the place. She isn’t scared of anything, she just stares at you when you make a lot of noise or anything. I am sure she and Jack will be buddies in no time.

Last week I had my first appointment in the rehabilitation centre I will be visiting VERY often the next couple of months. After my fall, nearly 4 months ago, I need some help getting my life back. We discussed what areas in my life I needed help with, she did a full physical check to see if I maybe needed a scan or x-ray (which I did not) and it was a really good appointment. It was my first doctor’s visit where I walked in and the doctor had read my entire file and knew everything about me, and my file is LONG. I was impressed! In a couple of weeks my actual treatment is starting and I am very nervous but also excited. I went to the same rehabilitation centre 6 years ago and it was extremely tough and hard but I learned so much!

We are all caught up now, phew! I will do one again soon, promise.

Diary of a journaling girl #2

It’s been quiet on this blog, I apologize! It wasn’t my intention but life got in the way. For people who visit this blog for the first time, I fell off my bike 60 days ago and was bedbound for over 50 days because of it. In the last 2 weeks I have been out of bed more often and training really hard to get my strength and stamina back and it has consumed most of my energy. I am far from my end goal but it’s been great getting my life back piece by piece. I still need a walker when I go out but I haven’t used my wheelchair in a while!

My boyfriend and I have also worked hard of my craft room and office. He did most of the work but I gave directions and helped declutter and organize. I wanted the room to make more sense as it was all over the place before. Now I have a set place for my computer, a place for my printer/laminator/cutting machine/stapler etc. and a set place for crafting. And all my supplies are in the corner where they belong. So I spend a lot less time going around the room getting all my stuff. I love my crafting corner the most, my bright yellow table and RÅSKOG cart make me so happy. Even though I can not spend a lot of time in the room as I can not sit for long periods of time, every second in the room makes me happy. Would you guys like a craft room/office tour? And would you prefer video form or just photos and text?

Next Wednesday is my boyfriends birthday and he is having a party on Saturday. I am an avid baker and I love baking loads of goodies for our birthday parties. This year I am still baking but I am not going as crazy as I would normally go. I also forced my boyfriend to take next Friday off work to help me bake so I can make sure I will get enough rest and don’t have to bend and/or lift anything. On his birthday itself we are going out to dinner, I hope I can make it! I am just going to spend the rest of the day in bed so I will have enough energy.

This week I am going to work on my daily routine. I want to make a list of all the blog content I want to create and going to spend a little bit of time every day working on it. I also want to start journaling more regularly as I journal about once every 10 days now and I would prefer to journal every other day or so. I can’t wait to feel more myself again after spending such a long time in bed. I will always have a disability but I am generally able to make it work with my hobbies and responsibilities. I am even excited about being able to cook and clean again! I would give money to be able to scrub my own toilet again, and yes I am aware that’s a weird thing to say. But I hate having to rely on other people, I love my independence.

Diary of a journaling girl #1

I really want this blog to be a reflection of me, and as a girl with a journal, it only seems fair to me that I use this blog as my online journal. As I am bedbound at the moment I don’t have a lot to talk about but today I felt like it was time for my first online journal entry.

I have been bedbound for 44 days now and things are finally starting to look up for me. Progress is slow, but it is there! The first couple of weeks I only left my bed to go to the toilet and shower, the last couple of weeks I have been walking small laps around the tiny parking lot in front of my house with a walker and taking small trips in my wheelchair. Yesterday I went on a walk with my walker to the local park, I had not left my parking lot with my walker before so I was a little nervous but it went really well! It was still a short walk but to me, it was an amazing trip.

Today I am a lot more tired, my body needs to rest so I am taking things slow today. Getting ready to place an Ikea order for my RÅSKOG cart plus bins which I am very excited about! Yesterday I received my ergonomical chair which hopefully will make sitting a lot easier for me once I am feeling a little better. It is so motivating to be a little more active while the pain does not get worse. Makes me feel like there will be a day when I will feel like my normal old self again. I will always have a chronic pain disorder but being able to  be a part of society again, even if it’s a small part, will make me so happy!

Last weekend I had a girls night in with two friends of mine, they came to my house and made me dinner and we watched a movie afterwards. We made a cheeseburger pie (yes you read that right!) and it was amazing! Imagine a cheeseburger the size of a pie, it tasted even better then expected! It was SO nice to feel normal for one night, even if I spend the night laying down. We laughed until we had tears streaming down our face and talked about girly things. I love having a group of friends who are not bothered by my chronic illness but are willing to help me but also treat me like a human being instead of a patient. It has really helped me stay positive the last 44 days! Gotta love friends!

That’s it for now, hope you liked this style of post!
See you soon xx